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Quitting Social Media

Where I am most of the time and where will I be for most days to come will be on this straight road of here and there trying to make some ends meet.

For the time being, I deactivated most of my social media accounts beacause it’s causing me pain seeing memories of the past and let’s face the truth… you are annoyed seeing people posting some senseless thoughts and wished you did something more productive other than scrolling on your feeds. Right… you can actually adjust your news feeds settings as what Facebook suggested but is it really worth adjusting it for almost a thousand friends on your lists? To unfollow each and every one of them? I’d rather write something instead of scrolling to death, like how social media controls some part of your brain not to do anything but just to stare at your phone…

First day of deactivating my Facebook account has gone by and if you ask me how it feels like? Liberating… that’s the word. I am currently on 2nd day streak and how I feel about it now? …ooops, I forgot that I disabled my Facebook app (uninstall wasn’t an option for my phone ..duhh) and I don’t see it now when I open my phone. I replaced those medias by… LINE Webtoon, Spotify, Chrome and WordPress apps just to name a few on what’s on my screen… Don’t judge LOL…

But what’s really my turning point for deactivating and disabling Facebook, Twitter and Instagram? Surely you now ask what is it… Well, people change feelings change friendships change and I need to change too in order to survive, adapt and fight and I hope that explains a bit. I am growing up period.

There’s a lot going on in my life right now and some shenanigans I need to brush off, yes I am still learning the process…

One of my Managers told me that I am so expressive and yes I am that expressive social type of a person, totally agree with that… no questions asked. It was then I realized that I really am that kind of person. You see, you read it, I just wrote that I am an expressive type but never had I imagined how true it was until my Manager told me so, straight and no reservations.

I have better control of my brain now for the most part and hoped to have a better control of my plans next, kind of exciting actually…

Especially For You (an open letter)

A great impact when I read your blog …do not blame onto others of what you are now today, because it was you all along who chose the road to take and people around you were just merely your guidance… However it was on how you’ve wrote it, it was ourselves who make our own destiny…

You are right… Cause even when I was a kid, I had always been told on what to do and how to act in front of the crowd and so I became dependent on people who decide for myself as long as it was in my favor, but it shouldn’t be like that… I was wrong…

Whenever people asked me to do a certain thing, I just simply nod and do what they say… They command and I follow… Until I slowly learn how to say ‘No’ because some things were becoming against my will and I was slowly building my belief among things I came across to…

To cut the story short, wrong decisions had been made, mistakes were done, words had been spoken, people got hurt, people cried and people go… But life must go on and every new beginning comes with a lot of lessons to carry on. Ask for forgiveness and learn a lot… As long as it will make you a better person, why not?

For now, I don’t intend to find a man whom I can appreciate and treasure cause I have to start on my own.. I have to appreciate what I have and start taking good care of myself… I have to study hard and put all my efforts to it and that’s what I know for now…

Love is not about finding whom you should you really be with, cause as long as you feel good about yourself and start doing good about everything… You’ll definitely attract the same person as you do…

#youareirreplaceable